cloud atlas

kevgir gibiyim testi olmaya çalışan
bir dünya düşün, meteorlardan geriye kalan
kurtlanmış, küflenmiş bir mumya gibi
kemikleri bile toz olan
kaybedilenler onarılmaz artık, yok bir şey geriye kalan
zaman durmuyor ve her saniye yiyor hatıralardan
ve hatıralar da tükendiğinde anlamsızlık geriye kalan

anlamı olmayacak hatıraların, ne kadar yüksek olsa da bedeli
kanla kemikle kolla bacakla beslemiş olsak da ateşi

gittiğinde anladım kendimin daha önce bittiğini

anlam taşıyan testiler durduğum anda boşalır
kaynaklarda kurudu, artık hiçlik yakışır

anlamı yoktu hiç bir şeyin, sonu böyle olduğunda
acı hüzün keder dert değil, duramıyorum tek bir duyguda
yazamıyorum daha fazla, önce mürekkep sonra kendisi bitince kalemin

anlamı yok hiç bir şeyin

emr sag

dolu

hep ağladık, suladık ve çağladık
bulutlara taşıyamayacağı kadar nem depolattık
soğuk kalplerimizi açtık
ve dolular yağdırdık

şimdi kopmak üzere kollarımız
kırık dallarımız sallanır

emr sag

you couldn't care less about me

and here i am, couldn't change the habbits of long time
i've mined everything, thought i wouldn't mind,
now only a shell remains, thin and light,
pick me up, put me on the shelf, i'm already gone.


emr sag

temizlik

içimde çürümüş çok şey, yoksa çürüyen ben miyim?
atılacak çok şey var da, göremiyorken nasıl seçeyim?

güneşi balçık, kan ve göz yaşıyla sıvadım, vakit hep gece,
uzun zamandır sustum, boğazım kuru, halbuki aşk sadece bir hece,

varlığın kuyuya uzanan ip gibi, ama zihnim güvenemez ki kendine,
tutunsam asılsam gerçek gibi ama ya çöldeki vaha gibiyse?

diyelim ki çıktım kazdığım kuyudan,
yüzeye çıktığımda tutacak mısın kolumdan?

karanlıkta hayaller rüyalara karışır,
gerçekten kaçtıkça ben hayallere bulaşır,

bir sevip kaybedince yeniden sevmek daha da zor,
söndürdüğüm dediğim yangınlar hala alev, hala kor.

emr sag

ikarus

monkey3 - ikarus

you were my sun that all began with an ode to
and i was your icarus, wings made out of love

loaded with tears enough to dim a star
now i've turn you into a dwarf

emr sag

yol hali

yine düştüm yola
son bir cevap hiç bitmeyen çağrıya
çünkü yine düşmeliyim arafa
kendimden hep bir dakika uzakta
sanki yetişemezken dertler
önlerinde kaçarken ben
hallerimden uzak bir iki nefes
yolculuk tütününden içerken

ama gene varılır gidilen yere
ve yakalar ne bıraktıysam geride
her seferinde umudum bir bagaj gibi unutmak
ama etiketi üstünde dertler döner gönderene

emr sag

fear of losing unobtained love

i have walls to crush, castles to concur
and it's my brain they all occur

i struggle with unbearable rush
to say it all, all at once

emr sag

brakes

hit the brakes, hard
it's not the time yet
all those past feelings, crushing hard
yet you cant give in, hold on tight

emr sag

grave of a fire

here i stand on ashes
as my tears washes my face
for times aged ages ago
where i was planed on your ego

i provided the bricks and you've built a wall
rather than a modest house
took the risk and i've endured life to get you
and after all this time you asked who?

i can only add wet woods
but this fire sizzled long ago and it's not even warm
got up, stepped on the last spark, didn't mean any harm love
it's hard to face the facts but it was long gone

here we stand over the grave of a fire
coldness surrounds us, and there are miles to walk
from this wilderness, after our talk ended
i have to straighten myself after all this bending

i still cry over silly things
but my mind is not clouded by thoughts that are evil
shadows of future no longer looks like devil, but
it's time to heal, stayed too long being hurt

emr sag

i hope, number stations, every light

i can't do this to you
you deserve ten or a thousand fold of me
yet the sight of you is the most special thing
forgotten relics of ancient times
the rush, the fuzziness, and butterflies
and yet what should i do with all this yearning

i can't do this to you, you deserve better
i can't just love you now

laura - i hope
laura - number stations
laura - every light

emr sag

farewell

a true love starts like a fairy tale
admired every last detail
a fire started by love aged badly
burned you from inside
my eyes were fixated on your skin
but i didn't notice you were burning
my beloved ash skin

i hold, clung and hugged tighter
as were you were slipping away, sizzled in pain
while i was just standing with the lighter on my hand
wondering, when it turned into the bad kind
asking, why wouldn't you mind

with a haunting memory of empty boxes
i can't light matches anymore

at this hour only truth can spill
even radio swan is down, what would even keep me still
strings cry even more now in my always late mind
songs have different meanings now that you are gone

i can't light matches anymore
this might not be the thing you want to hear
either the boxes are empty or sparks are gone
old wounds covered in scabs already started to heal

and under my skin i bury your good memories
and make room for new discoveries
i hope you get out and get rid off your precious self made well
this my farewell

emr sag

it's kind of like the innocent smiles you get at the start of a relationship before you fuck everything up

on the deck of a wooden ship
inside of a glass bottle, you can see what's in

on the deck of a wooden vessel
smelling like ash, after all the burning

on the deck of a rock, floating in
smelling like death, millions buried under soil, rotting

on the bed of what-ifs, what could, should and would have been
you had millons faces, i mostly faced mean

on the deck of a new spark, less than love more than like
there must be an end to every tunnel, just hold on to your kite

laura - it's kind of like the innocent smiles you get at the start of a relationship before you fuck everything up

emr sag

september isn't too far

turned myself into a cocoon
my silk sorrow

with your grasp still holding on
not sure my wings will grow

emr sag

uyumsuzluk

sığınmak için aradığım limandın
sen ise yeni yolculuklar aradın
ben sadece rotalar çizdim
sana ise denizin kokusu yetmezdi
ben ise boğulmaktan korkardım
çok ağladık karşılıklı
şimdi sular altında kaldın
  
emr sag

bir fırt, bir yudum

yan küçük yaprak yan, bunun için dünyaya geldin,
tütsülesen de darma duman edemedin,
yutkun acı yudumları, ki belki gecen kolay geçsin,
yine ettin sabahları, derberder haldesin.

açtığın onuncu kapı, yine gördüğün kendi leşin,
bin kapı daha açtın, aklını ne eyledin?

çok önce demir attığın limanlar su altında kaldı,
sanma ki gel gittir, hepsini kim ağladı?

yan küçük ev yan, olmadın ki hane,
say bakalım her duvarındaki acı izleri kaçar tane?

gece beni ben eyledi, gündüz oldu hayaller nerdeydi?
istediğin bir sarılmak da ertesi günü düşünmedin mi?

sallanırsın beşikte kulağında ninni gözünde yok uyku,
sen kazdın kürek kaşık kepçe elle, içinden çıkamadığın dipsiz kuyu,

peki şimdi söyle kim ağlasın sana, yanında getirdiğin bir kaç metre ip,
yüzlerce ilmek verildi de hepsini söktün attın sikip,

sandın ki tahtın sallanmaz surların içindeki kalende,
şimdi bekler durursun, belki kırılır kalem diye,

duygularına ulaşırsın anca iki üç saat müzik içince,
o kadar aradın da bulamadın gene manayı içinde.

yaz yaz belki durulursun,
sanki yüzebileceksin de dersin sular durulsun.

şimdi tak kilitleri geri, bin kapı yeniden kurulsun,
nasıl olsa yarın uyanınca hepsini unutursun.

emr sag

scales

where gravity is lost,
nothing weighs a little,
and after my shoulders are free,
my hands get tight around my collar.

emr sag

porcupine skin

... and as I turned around the corner and there is me,
who made the all that suffering and all the evil,
made millions cry, another billion under ground.

made with same flesh, same bones but only the exactly same eyes,
that eyes see no further then where it ends, only the lids that extends,
so close yet out of reach, been that way for all eternity,
by the eternity it means my own incapability,
inability to own, hold and grow,
yet only able to sought after, down south of the border,
where no body lives but every resident suffer,
just to endure the pain, needle rain,
sticks into porcupine skin.

emr sag

enemy

silently lurks in deeps
feeds on hope with big bites
consume and catch yourself in tin
your worst enemy lives within

emr sag

olmadı

soğuk duvarlar sıcak kucak,
sarılan kirpiler en yumuşak,
keder en tatlı duygu,
acı en berrak zihin,
hepsi yokluğundan aslında,
sen gideli yıllar oldu da...

emr sag

Deception has a way with words

Light, breath, exhale,
Like, touch, alienate,
Kind, rough, exterminate,
Love, consume, hate.

Get used to, become addicted, don't be sober,
Cry, drink, postpone,
Form fists, clench, now let go.

One scar, one million needles, passive,
Underwater, no air, pressure so massive.

Born on Earth, lived in space, died in a black hole.

i hear sirens - deception has a way with words

emr sag

La Cerva

ışığı kapattın gittiğinde
hala karanlık odalar

bıraktığın tohumları diktim bıraktığın boşluğa
her biri dev bir kara delik oldular

emr sag

own it

at the edge of sleep where my mind at its weakest, fears running loose
clinging to rim of existence, drums are going wild, fading away
image of you out of no where, tears in pillow, out of breath
no more says a piece, escaped from its leash, with a bat in its hand, in blood bath
no vase is safe to put you in, my most fragile, sand in fist, slipping
love was a endless well, that we now drowning in
pain, lack of rain, lots of  sharp things, pointing
a door within reach, not to light or dark, definately not something green
one more night, one more sleep, turn into sheep and jump
to the darkness i nurse, the black hole i possess, tailor made

random acts of kindness can't hold any longer,
load the barrel, fill the tub, grab a handful
don't be coward, don't be a selfish asshole,
do it, own it
end it, but own it
endure it, have to own it
swallow and puke, get through it

done the deed, now own the pain
shredded roads are waiting for shredded minds
million of me but one survives

frozen time, press play and lose the one
then no one survives

-
emr sag

hurt

tonight is the night to survive
to pass on
tomorrow is the line
to cling on

once again it will start over
to build on
that's the repeating curse I have
to live on

emr sag